Well just dropped brandon off at school for wrestling and its like 5 degrees outside, happy to say we havent used an ounce of oil since before thanksgiving. Thank god for that oil is expensive. The man has been diligently cutting wood for a month now and thats what we been using for heat, always nice and warm in here.  I have 2 appointments today but all i wanna do is get back in bed and cuddle up. But its gotta be done cause im still in alot of pain when i move.   There hasnt been any drama in my life lately but thats all good, I like it nice and quiet.  There are some nasty girls out there and unfortunalty 2 have involved themselves in my life and their payback is coming, I am not the one giving the payback but their lives are going to take a turn come here shortly. I am not one to hold back but on this one all i can do is sit and watch. I mean come on now, getting yourself involved in my life is one thing but sleeping with my friends husband is another and while they are still married and then talking about everyones lives and gossiping about whats going on with all the people in the neighborhood is just ridiculous, are you really that bored with your own life, and the other girl well thats a whole other story. Birds of a feather!

Dinner time and well agian, here alone. Brandon at wrestling and well the man is across the street playing pool. The tree is still up, im not allowed to take it down. They say it should stay up untill my birthday but this year im just not up to celebrating my birthday. Chuckie passed away on my birthday so i guess it will be a while till i get over that. Really most the time I dont do anything on that day anyway. I think next week I will take myself to the local goodwill or thrift shop and see if i can find any good deals. I need to start getting back to myself and get out of this rut. I do have to thank the man he has been taking care of me and supporting me while i been going thru this. Untill recently he has complained.

Dec 28, 2011

Why is it that I cant sleep past 5:30? I may as well go back to the house and grab more stuff like my clothes. Thats all I can carry without hurting my back. I have relisted things on to ebay but nothing seems to be selling. Guess I need to put more items on. I am really missing work and I dont know why, i get treated like a mushroom there. I needs to go thrift shopping soon to get my self esteem back up and motivated. I will post pictures as soon as i can, Brandon has a meet tomorrow and i wont be able to go which breaks my heart.